Monday, December 29, 2014

He was perfectly human. I love him flaws and all.

The beginning of 2014 I lost a VERY precious light in my life.My Grannie McNew, I lost her in January... and in the last month of 2014, I lost my dad. I knew I loved him, I just never knew how much until he left.
I never have missed someone so much in my life... I realized the things I shoulda or woulda said if I had the chance again. I woke up today from a dream that my dad was in. He didn't say a word.
I was not going to say anything to him, and then I remembered what I needed to say to him!
I walked over and looked him right in the eyes and told him, that I love him SO much, and that I LOVE his smile. He smiled, and then I woke up. I felt a release. I felt peace. I felt loved.
Today is my Grannie's b-day, she would have been 91 years old. I miss them both and love them very much!  Please let the people you love know that you love them. If there are walls up just say what you need to say anyway! Life is so very short!
I will miss them every day until I am with them again in heaven. I hope and pray 2015 is so much better than 2014 was.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

More human than human...

I have decided that I am sick of many, many, things in my life. One of the top 4 is disrespect directed towards me. In any form.
I knew a long time ago that people only do to you what you allow them to do!
Somehow, somewhere along this journey of my life I lost sight of that?
I have heard things I never would have dreamed,  I would have heard said to me.
I have had things done to me I would have swore 14 years ago... would never have been done to me!
I also myself have said and done things that I am very ashamed of!!
Maybe I justified doing and sayings those thing because it was in retaliation?
There is REALLY no justifying things like that on either end of the situation tho.
Humans make me sad, I feel so very human today. Perfectly imperfect and broken.
If you are reading this say a prayer for me. <3

Saturday, September 27, 2014


Just stopping by to give a quick update! After a LOOOOOONG  creative block,things are starting to flow! I am STILL in-love with my Cricut Explore! The print and cut feature is amazing [released a few days ago]! I have printed and cut on other machines, and the Explore owns all of them!
SOOO I guess I will end this post here and get to bed! It is the weekend!
YAY! Tomorrow I create! <3 Have a blest weekend all!

                      <3 - Dezz

Thursday, February 27, 2014

SOOOO today IS the day! The day I thought not so long ago would NEVER come! The day I get the brand-new Cricut Explore!!!? Not sure if I ranted here or not before but a few years back my anger and hatred ran HOT for all things Provo Craft!!! Why? Mainly because they sued the makers of some of the most amazing software EVER - Make the Cut. That software is all I used on my Cricut for YEARS! I used that software SOOO MUCH that I honestly didn't know how to use a cartridge with the Cricut! LOL I didn't update my drivers for my Cricut machines OR my Make the Cut software UNTIL Jan. of this year, when my amazing hubby surprised me with a Cameo!! I love it!! It cuts amazingly AND it can be used with Make he Cut!!! <3  Fast forward a few weeks. I found myself feeling shocked and intrigued to be hearing that Cricut had the NERVE to make another machine. I kind of became obsessed, which annoyed my hubby a lil'. = / The more I heard. The more I saw. The more  I liked... the more I WANTED this machine!! I got a good feeling about this new machine! SOOOO I continued to stalk! When it was nearing  HSN WORLD launch  time @ midnight Feb. 12th... I was ready to pounce! Three hours before it aired I ordered mine.... and have been waiting now more than 2 weeks! GRRRR! SOOOO better be worth it! I think it will be. G33k3d!!!! I will be back to share my thoughts... Hope all of you have a blest Thursday! <3

Monday, February 3, 2014


It has been FOREVER since I last posted... OH THE SHAME OF IT ALL!! I think I am blog-challenged!
Anyways... Guess in the coming days... and weeks I shall shake the dust of around here by posting.
Maybe I'll post a project? Maybe I'll rant about my life? IDK. All I know is I am going to try and keep it active. Considering doing some Youtube videos as well, seriously tho, mama is socially challenged! LOL
God bless and <3's I am out for now!